You see, I have wanted tattoos all my life, ever since I learned what they were. I mean, whats better than drawrings AND possibly various color that will stay with you all your life? That notion just thrills my little heart. Now, for the past couple years, I had wanted my first tattoo to be a balloon (with red accents) tied to an anchor. This is based off a quote from the book, The House on Mango Street, a brilliant book, which I love. I really really do love this book. Je l'aime beaucoup. (
The reason I don't have a tattoo, or a lip ring or a nose ring for that matter, is because of my parents. They have declared that I can get one if I really want. I'll just be completely on my own for paying all bills, and I think my mom said something about me not living in the house any more if I got tattooed. Once I'm out of the house and all on my own, I can do whatever. So, you know, I'm not likely to go out and get something done on my own. I'll respect them. It's just.... I'm bitter about it. I know for sure, one of the first things I'm going to get once I'm on my own, is a tattoo. I remember being little, and my mom saying, "You can't have it now, but if you still want it in a week or two, we can come back and get it. Because if you still want it a week later, you really want it." Now, when I say this wanting has gone on my whole life, I mean, MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE. Okay? It's not just something I saw all my friends do, and I wanted to fit in. It's not something that seems cool, cause all my favorite celebrites have them. Nope. It's about art, and something that lasts forever. And you know what? I sincerely hope that I am that old lady you see around, with tattoos that are wrinkled and sagged. I like the idea of something that never leaves you, in a good way. And when I'm dead and gone, I hope no mortition tries to make up away the things I chose to cover my body with.
Now, I chose my official "whenever I get a tattoo, this'll be my first" for a couple reason. First, the titles are song titles, one from my all time favorite band, and the other from one of my favorite bands. The hashtags are done ironically, cause I'm hipster like that. The main reason is to express my bitterness. I mean, I know my parents said no, because they don't "believe"? in them? I guess? I mean, they must have their reasons. And they've explained their reasons out to me, I know. But I just don't rank those reasons as enough reason to not get one or a dozen. It's something I want. Nothing personal to you, mummy and daddy. It's not a sign of rebellion. Just me wanting to get something beautiful. Something that means something to me. Something I can look at, and it makes me happy, and smile. Plus, it's practical. You don't have to worry about losing it, or someone stealing it. And as I'm not planning on going out, partying it up, and getting a tattoo while drunk, it should be something that I picked out/designed that's special to me. And keep forever. Not alot of stuff (besides diseases) you can say that about.
Ideally, I would want this over my heart, to fully convey how bitter I am. But, I would consider getting it on my hip. Fourty years from now, I will probably be that ornery old lady, who still feels she was wronged, but I'd rather have the tattoos in easy seeing range to be the tattoos of things that make me smile. Not the things that make me bitter. If right now, my mom said, "you go ahead and get just one for now, and then later on you can do whatever", I probably wouldn't get this tattoo at all. It would be a compromise, I guess. I'd get something that makes me smile, probably on my arm. Or even if she said," you know what, go get your lip pierced like I know you want to."
But that's not likely to happen, so I'll just keep my bitterness to myself and the internet till I get it permanently inked into my skin.
P.S. If I ever ended up in a situation where I could get a tattoo without having to pay for anything, like a friend offering to pay, or a buy one get one where a friend was getting one anyways, I would do it. Damn the consequences. It's probably not very likely, and probably won't happen, but I would do it.