Little things and a Shout Out to Danielle

Yesterday, I went to the mall with one of my favorite people, and did something that terrified me. It wasn't going to the mall, though that can be anxiety inducing all of itself. I got my nose pierced. And it was terrifying, and I hate needles, and I almost passed out.

And I'm watching The First Time while trying to type this, and it's hard to focus when Dylan O'Brien is being the wonderful adorable person that he is. HOLY FUCK, MY PRECIOUS BABY.

But do you know what a great feeling it is, to have done something that terrifies you? And have gotten through it? MY NOSE HAS BEEN PIERCED. It was crazy, and I hate needles, and I got through it. I overcame, and now I have something that I have wanted for a super long time.

I am so happy Danielle was with me, though. Cause if I had gone with my mom, who was actually hoping I'd chicken out, I prolly would not have gotten it done. And then I would be sad. Danielle is a beautiful human being and one of my favorite people in the history of ever.

And now that I have proclaimed that I have done something that scared the pants off me, and did it anyways, and now I can officially say that, and so back to The First Time. Dylan is so precious.

Some of this has been edited, so I'll just throw in some pick up lines, since I've already changed stuff....

Home is whenever I'm with you

On Pinterst, lots of people have boards dedicated just for their wedding. Dresses, cakes, decorations, set ups, so many ideas all poured into one board. I don't really get it. I think it would be nice to plan a wedding with whoever I may happen to marry. It's not just my day. Besides, all I know is that I want the dress from A Cinderella Story. And have lots of twinkly fairy lights, and maybe bubbles. If it was a twilight, that could be cool too.

But, I do have a board for something in the future. This is just full of possible ideas and thoughts and inklings. I have an extreme desire to organize, and fill someplace full of me and the things that I love. Once, when I was in eighth or tenth grade, I got crazy excited. Because I realized, one day, I would be able to choose my own laundry detergent. I got excited because of laundry detergent. I could be wrong, but I don't think that's something that runs through every teenagers head. I want a home of my own. I don't know if any of you have read the House on Mango Street (It's a great book that I adore). But I connected to the main character, Esperanza, who desperately wants a home of her own. Well, she also wants to leave her neighborhood, but the point still stands. She wants it desperately.

I want a home of my own. I want to find a place to live, and go shopping for a couch, and pillows, and rugs, and kitchen stuff, and a bed, and knick knacks. I want knick knacks, guys. Knick knacks. I want to decorate and paint.

Some of my friends have become homesick. Or, they already were homesick, and it's only gotten worse. Others have been worried about what others think of them. While it's kind of hard to be too homesick when you commute, and still sleep in your own bed, and see your mom pretty much every morning, I do get worrying about if people like being my friend, if I'm annoying them, if they truly do like being around me. And it kills me inside to hear others feeling this way. I want my friends to feel loved. I want them to know they are wonderful, and talented. They're all so talented. I adore them all so much. They are fantastic, and phenomenal, and if somebody doesn't tell me to stop I'll just keep rambling about how extraordinary and wonderful they all are.

I kind of want to be home for them. It sounds a bit weird, wanting to be home for people. But I just want to make everyone feel safe and happy and cherished. If I make people feel even a bit better about themselves, I will count that as a success.



I thought I'd do a thing were I share some things that currently make me happy. Because if something makes you happy, there's a good chance it makes someone else happy, which means I'm not just sharing some random stuff, I'm sharing happiness. Which is pretty fucking cool.

Some songs that are consistently replayed:
 Thrift Shop by Macklemore
 Primadonna by Marina and the Diamonds
 Cups by Anna Kendrick (I also adore Anna Kendrick. She's such a bamf)
 22 by Taylor Swift
 Picking up the Pieces by Paloma Faith
 Pop Danthology by Daniel Kim
 Crazy Kids by Ke$ha




I've started watching Teen Wolf. Honestly, I thought Stiles was the main character. I mean, Scott's cool too, but Stiles just makes it beautiful.










I also went shopping yesterday with one of my favorite people, and I fell in love. With a hat. And a sketchbook. And a card that I bought solely to put on my wall. I feel like it all bumps up my hipster cred by at least 78 percent.

So. It's been a while :or: A bucket list

I am horrible at doing this, aren't I? It was easier to update when I was using it to procrastinate. Now I can do what ever I want to, and most of the time it isn't very productive stuff.

Lists of things I've done since school let out last year (I can say last year cause it's now 2013. It all feels so long ago):

• Re read the first 3 Harry Potter books. SO FUCKING GOOD.
• Drew a bit. Not an over abundance of drawing, but a bit.
• Exchanged some presents with some great people. I don't know how I got such amazing friends, but I'm so happy they are in my life
• Watched the Hobbit. I now fancy Kili/Aidan Turner so much it's ridiculous. It's so ridiculous, that I'm pretty sure I could get rid of a boggart with it.
• Am attempting to learn how to apply liquid eye liner with out it looking horrible.
• Also, shout out to Hard Candy, which is one of my favorite makeup brands.
• Been generally very lazy all around.

This past year has been a really great year. I can't think of anything horrible that's happened to me, I got to spend time with some of the coolest people ever, I'm studying something I adore.

With all of the great things, I don't really know of any resolutions, except for my daily resolution: To only dread one day at a time." I read it in a book somewhere, once, and it's really helped me, cause other wise I over think, and make myself sick. But one day at a time is manageable.

So, since I don't have any particular New Years resolution, I thought I'd share my bucket list. Things that will most likely not happen in this next year, or even relatively soon, but I want to do them before I die. I've never actually written these all out, so if the seem a little sporadic, they might be.


1-  To travel.

I absolutely love seeing new things and going new places. I love those books where you get to explore worlds with the characters, but like Gandalf says, "The world isn't in your books and maps. It's out there." I want to go abroad, and see all the iconic places for myself, and also look around and find all the things that you don't see immediately. The bits that don't always make it into the books and movies. The parts that would be unique to me.


2- To go to an All Time Low concert and a Starkid concert

I have never been to a concert. I mean, once I went to a christen concert with my family and church, but I'm not counting that. I want to go to my favorite band's concert. Perferably sooner than later, I feel like a 55 year old me wouldn't appreciate it as much as a 20 something me.

3- To own and run a small coffee shop

I've talked about this before. I have no clue why I want this, I just really do. I can practically see it in my head. Maybe if I retire rich, or make a lot of money someday, this will be something I can make happen. 

4- To walk around the Louvre

This one may fall under travel, but I have wanted to walk around to Louvre, and see all the art MY ENTIRE LIFE.  Except the mummies. I'd be fine with skipping the mummies. I've always thought, if I could only visit one place in the entire world, I'd want to visit the Louvre.

5- To decorate a small apartment however I want

I have always wanted this. Is that weird? Does anyone else feel that? I just want to be able to have a small apartment, with a kitten or a puppy, and have it all decorated how I want. I see the people in the movies who have those apartments, and I'm jealous of them. I want to have a couch that I found sitting just so in front of a TV, maybe a comfy recliner type chair next to it. A bookcase against a wall, loaded with books. A shelf full of movies. A fish tank somewhere. A little kitchen, filled with pots and pans and plates. A bedroom filled with good lighting, and drawing utensils, and pillows. And mugs. Lots of mugs everywhere. 
Not to mention all the things that remind me of friends. I'm horrible at taking pictures, or wanting to take pictures, so I prolly won't have alot of those around. But the things they've given me will be everywhere.

6- To get a tattoo

I've also talked about this. I still really want a tattoo. A lot. I just want a little something, a little bit of art, that will stay forever. I know people say, tattoos are permanant, why would you want one? But that's part of the allure for me. It's so nice, in this day and age to look at something and say, this will never change. This will stay with me forever. And to be able to have art with you where ever you go? Who doesn't want a reminder of something that makes them happy every where they go?
   
7- To be happy

I desperately hope, no matter what happens in my life, or where I end up, I will always find a way to make the best of things. If life doesn't turn out well, I want to still be able to say, life is still good. The sun is still shining. And I am still happy. I want to be able to still notice the little things that make life good, the little smiles, the little joys.
         

Since I'm an animation student, I found this pick up line appropriate.

 

Avenging is magic!

 

Applejack is Steve.

 

Rainbow Dash is either Thor or Tony. (I felt she could almost go either way, and look how well all these pictures go together!)

 

Fluttershy is Bruce. (Look at them! They're both soooo cute!!)  I might have a tiny crush on Mark Ruffulo.

And Celestia is totally Nick Fury. It's just obvious. Lots of secrets, having the mane six do all the fighting.

 

Finally, here's a picture of Tony in a shirt that I know we all wish we had, and a picture of the adorable Matt Smith hugging a purple unicorn pillow pet. <3 They all so adorbes.

 

Also, I'd like to remind everyone that Benedict Cumberbatch and Tom Hiddleston's friendship name is Cuddles. That is all. Carry on.