Not Alone

So, Glee came on again last night. So good. So much Darren. And my friend Danielle was practically in tears during all the Darren Criss- y goodness. (Like when he was in the shower. Which was my favorite part as well)

But then she wrote a blog about why she loves Darren Criss, and Team Starkid. And it was beautiful. And it made me want to write a blog about why I love Darren and Starkid so much.

Growing up, I didn't have an abundance of friends, or really close friends. My sister is 5 and half years older than me, so she pretty much stopped playing with me about when I was 7. I was homeschooled and lived about an hour away from most the people I know. Off a highway, so I don't even really have neighbors. Don't get me wrong, I went out and did stuff with people. I wasn't a total recluse. But I never had a chance to get to be bosom buddies with anyone. I always pictured myself as Anne Shirley, but I had no Dianna to run and play with. And so, my bestest closest friends that I cherished the most, (and still dearly loved), were books. Through middle school and high school, the highlight of my week was always going to the library to get an assload of books. New friends, old friends. Some I left as acquaintances, which I never fell in love with, but I still recognize them on the shelves. Others I fell deeply and ardently in love with, and I read and re-read them like crazy.

Somewhere in highschool, between my Junior and Senior year, I discovered A Very Potter Musical. And I loved it. Also, about when I started, they had just put out A Very Potter Sequel. And I just watched it and loved it. I went on to watch Me and My Dick, and then when Starship came out I watched, got the album, would've gotten the shirts, but I had no money for it. On Friday, yes this Friday, April the 13th, Starkid's next musical comes out. And you can bet your ass I will be watching it. Possibly much more than once.

You see, the magical thing about Starkid, more than them being college students who wrote and put on these amazing musicals, more than them becoming super popular and still incredibly nice, The thing is..... They made me feel like I wasn't alone. Whether it was Harry Freaking Potter finally finding a home at Hogwarts, or a dick finding true love, or Bug becoming a Starship Ranger, they were all there for me. Through their musicals, and their cuteness, and their nerdiness. They are just lovely human beings.

They gave me hope for college. That I would find friends there, and we would go on to do great things, and be supermegaawesomefoxyhot friends. As someone who is really shy/awkward around people she doesn't know, I was super nervous about going to college, if I would become friends with anyone, if people would like me. Actually, I talked with people the very first week about Team Starkid. And we're still good friends. Actually the people I talked to are now some of my best friends on campus.

Starkid told me I'm not alone. That I need to kick it up a notch, that there's no way we're giving up, that I don't know me, the way they do. And when it's time, in less than a month, to say goodbye to all these wonderful people I've come to love for summer break, Days of Summer will be constantly playing. Along with Gotta Get Back to Hogwarts.

And I would just like to say, bless Joe Walker's abs. Just.... just bless them....

Easter Break coming up!! Woo hoo!

So, I'm ready for a break. Even though I just had one 2 weeks ago. I'm ready for sleeping before the sleepless nights before finals. I'm ready to read, maybe draw a bit.

I.... keep hearing about relationships. Everywhere. Just everywhere. And.... relationships in relation to me. And it's just from everywhere! Like my spam mail. The chapels at my college. The surveys we took in sociology... How does it just keep popping up?

I feel fine being single. I mean, I don't feel the need to go out and git muh-self a man. They seem like such a hassle. Honestly.

Though I do have a little checklist in my head of what a boyfriend would be good for. But I don't need one. Nope. I, as my friend Danielle says, am a strong independent black woman who don't need no man. And I love her for it. I feel perfectly fine being single. I don't feel lonely (except when PMSing, but I'm just emotional in general then.) I don't feel like I need someone to complete me.

So why does it keep coming up? I feel like I'm being peer-pressured. Only I sincerely doubt my proffesors and the higher ups who run the school and decide chapels got together with my spam mail to make me feel like I need to get in a relationship.

Neglected due to..... Reasons

Yup. I just realized I hadn't put anything on here in forever! Or a couple weeks, whichever comes first.

Lots of stuff has been happening. Exciting stuff. Wonderful stuff. Timey-wimey wibbaly-wobbably stuff.

Or, failing that, I entered a picture into the student show at my college, and it made it in!!!!!! Super excited about that. It's hanging there. On the wall. Because it made it in!

So.... yah. Can't think of anything else. I'll just let the feelings pile up so I'll come back soon with a worthwhile post.

Time Ticks Stealthily Away...

I am, as you know, in college. A freshman. And I am currently on spring break!!! Such a lovely lovely thing. It's almost over. I haven't really done anything too exciting yet. I've caught up on sleep, worked, and bought some jeans. (wearing them now, actually.) It's been good. Nice and peaceful. I miss people lots, but it hasn't been horrible.

Now, to the blog's point. Or at least the part where I get to the legit post..... Prolly won't get to the actual point for a bit.... 
So, this weekend I'm going to this overnight thing. It's for church volleyball, on Saturday all the teenaged persons in the Nazarene church in Northeastern Indiana shall all come together and display their talents for all to see. So the volleyball team from my old zone is going to sleep in the same place at the same time the night before. It helps with bonding and shit, mostly it means everyone will get there at the same time. No worrying about weather this person or that person going to make it, cause they're already all there! Like lil goslings under the mother goose's wing.....

Just last year, I went to that, and participated. Just last year. It doesn't feel like just last year. It feels both like it was just yesterday, and yet forever ago. I mean, I'm halfway through my current semester, and it seems like we just started yesterday.

Maybe it's because I don't really see the same people all the time anymore. Instead I have all my friends from college. (mostly Film, Animation, Ed, and Art majors.) So it's almost like a different life. I don't miss it that much, I love college, and my major, the people here. I really really do. The main thing I miss is all the time to read, and quizzing. I'd try to really explain quizzing, but it's like a book that you love, that you can never explain well, so you have to sit there and say, "It's actually really cool! I promise!" Mostly it's awesome because of the people in it. I love them all.

So how does the time do it? I know now, so often I'm caught up in deadlines, and just getting everything done by the deadline, it just feels like one long day sometimes. With bits of sleep and seeing people between. But how can something, that will be a year ago on Saturday, how can that seem like a lifetime ago? 

Well, I doubt I'm going to figure that out, especially since it makes my brain hurt just thinking about it. I'm just going to try to put it out of my mind (though it'll prolly come back sometime at night when all I really want is to just fall asleep.) and enjoy this weekend, seeing people I used to know.

I'm going to go find a pickup line to put at the end of this blog, cause they make me happy. brb.
I found one I'd love to use, but it's a Halloween one..... the search continues.
 If I had Captain Jack Sparrow's compass, right now it would be pointing at you. <3

An Ethics Paper I did for School. And thought I would share.

• Identify the facts surrounding the issue
• Define the issues surrounding the issue
• Identify the people/groups of people that are affected
• Identify the options for each affected group
• Describe the consequences of these options
• How do your values and beliefs including your religious faith affect your view of the issue?
• If confronted with this type of ethical situation/issue, what would you do?

I chose to talk about the ethics surrounding blogs, as I have a blogger, a Tumblr, a DeviantArt and I had to do a blog for class (Intro to DMA) last semester. I feel like I have personal connections to such an issue.

Blogs are like journals or diaries, that the whole world can see. It’s kind of exciting, really. People can write about everything, whatever, nothing. There is no limit, really, as what a blog can be. It can be a picture blog, a blog about restaurants, a blog that reviews movies, a ranting blog. Whatever. And with the easiness of copy and paste, save image as, and downloading stuff off the internet, it’s super easy to take other people’s “intellectual property” and post it as your own.

Now, when I did the blog for school last semester, our professor, Leeper, told us we needed to have a picture or a video or something, as well as writing what we think. He wanted us to keep it to story-telling and DMA- related stuff, at least kinda keep it related, but really, we could talk about anything. But I got use to taking pictures from DeviantArt and webcomics. And I did try to cite, and put where I got the pictures, at least. Sometimes I felt bad when I didn’t. So I tried to remember to cite. And now that I have my own personal blog, I don’t have as many pictures, unless they’re my pictures, or it says somewhere that they are free to use. Just cause I don’t want to accidentally take someone else’s work and pass it off as my own, or use it when they didn’t want it used.

I’d say this mostly affects the artist. Those putting their work out there, trying to get noticed, or just sharing their work with the world. I mean, artists put their music up on MySpace to get notice, but they don’t want you just taking it and adding it to your collection. How are they supposed to make a living if their wares keep getting taken without charge?

At least on Tumblr, you have the option to reblog. It shows who you reblogged it from, who they reblogged it from, and eventually you get back to the first person. And so, you can share what makes you happy without accidentally claiming it as something you made, or something you came up with. Some people put water-marks on their artwork that’s hard to remove without destroying the picture.

People still try to steal stuff, claim it as their own. Remove the watermark, touch it up. Change it just the teensy-est bit. I see it one DeviantArt, people will have journals where they’ve found their pictures around the interwebs, and they don’t know who to petition, how to get it removed, or they just want to spread the word, so people know who the rightful owner is. One person even had one of their original characters, that they created, and so belonged to that person, on a porn role-playing site. Which is just wrong. It doesn’t matter if the drawing looks just like what whoever took it thought their character always looked like. It’s wrong. It’s like slandering, really.


The consequences of it are hard to describe, often these people don’t ever get noticed. I mean, it’s a huge world outside, and with a world wide web with many people having Facebooks, Tumblrs, DeviantArt, Bloggers, Wordpresses, YouTubes it can be easy to just bury it. Not only that, some people have more than one account on each of these. I know of people on Tumblr who have hipster blogs, Disney blogs, and their personal blog. Even if they do get caught, it’s not like they get thrown out of the internets for all of eternity. At most they get blocked from a site or two, and maybe some hate mail. And that’s at most. At least they’ll get away with it, and have people telling them how creative they are.

Sometimes it is easy to want to take other’s stuff and try to pass it off as your own. I mean, it’s there. Surely it can’t be too hard to just take it, and put it back up somewhere else. But as someone who has spent hours on art projects, and making sure everything is as close to how I saw it in my head, if someone did that to me, I’d be super pissed. If someone took something I had stressed about, spent days on, thought about it while trying to fall asleep, I would just be both mad, and at the same time sad and disappointed. I mean, it’s mine. I worked on it. And you’re just going to copy  it, and say you did all that work? And so from the perspective of someone who has put time and effort into their work, I just couldn’t do it. I just can’t even justify that. I know everyone wants to feel special, and talented, but stealing other people’s work is not the way to do it. It only shows you are talented at taking what’s not yours.

I don’t mind people using my artwork, if they credit it. I don’t really mind at all. But not everyone feels like that, especially those who do want their work to be theirs. They don’t want you to take their work, period. It’s not a gift. It’s not a free for all. It might seem a bit selfish to some, that people won’t share their art, and their work, but with something where you have to invest so much of yourself, it’s completely understandable. It’s your piece of work. Not anyone else’s. And if I ever realize I “stole” or “claimed” someone’s work, I’d feel horrible.

Blogs, and artwork, and music, and videos are something that people make for themselves, or are something they do for a living. Not for anyone else. It’s theirs.